I've got family surrounding me in this wonderful place. They've been extremely kind to me. And all I can think about is him. I've been in his country now for a few days now and I wish I had already met the man. I am the impatient kind. I was crying just a few minutes ago wondering how this relationship is going to move along, yet I know I could never let him go. I terribly, crazily, head over heels in love with him. I know how he feels about me, and it is also what fuels my feelings back to him. I've called him twice the first day I got here and it was a little strange and risque considering nobody in the family knows of our relationship. We have been quite free most times in sharing our feelings for each other, but this has been quite awkward. I asked if it would be alright to get Yahoo Messenger so I can keep in contact with all my friend, but I merely want to send him my feelings and thoughts, without the awkwardness, without the censoring, so to speak. I want the "i love u's" and I want all the "hugs and kisses and hearts" and I want to give them back and this is the only way it is possible. So I downloaded it and am much happier now that we can converse freely, secretly.

I'm misssing him even more than ever...now that I'm in his country, but he's still too far away. It's way too expensive to call him as he doesn't live in the city I'm staying...urgh....so it's worse, no phone calls and maybe in some ways it's better cause we can keep things to each other.

I just want to meet him, spend time with him, be in the same room with him and give him the biggest hug he's ever gotten. I can't wait!!!!