He gets jealous over simple things I would never think of anything other than normal behavior in my life. Even before this relationship with him had started, he had been jealous over a picture I had taken with Kurt Browning, the figure skater. Kurt had his arm around me, with his hand on my waist and I did the same. First of all, where he's from girls and boys don't really have physical contact, as a religious factor. I also follow the same religion, but I hug my friends whether male or female. That was actually the moment afterwards, where he told me how he felt about me.
Another time, he got upset and jealous over some guy who cut my hair, yes a hairdresser. I got upset because I drew to conclusions that he didn't trust me. He said that wasn't the case, so then what the hell is it? He doesn't like that another man has touched me. Well I told him, it was just my hair. Apparently I'm starting to get the feeling that he doesn't even like other men taking pictures of me. I have a feeling, no confirmation yet. I had sent him a bunch of pictures and he asked me if a man or a woman took them for me, and I told him the truth as always....my friend and co-worker Patricia took them.
Then the dinner party I had with work, I sent pictures to him of that. One of which I have mentioned in my previous post.
I'm so upset and getting all bothered over this whole thing. I have told him, it is perfectly innocent. What the hell is he thinking? Does he think that these men are only thinking about one thing, even when we are simply just friends? Why should it matter anyhow? It should only matter what I'm thinking or feeling about that specific person, shouldn't it?
I'm upset because I have a feeling we're going to end up having an argument and this may not end up well at all. He has no internet so the only way I've been keeping in contact is by calling him once a week with a calling card. He only has heard my sweet loving voice. He has only seen me upset when he touched me inappropriately that one evening. Which is also an issue, if he believes what he believes..that a married woman should only have that kind of contact with her husband. We aren't married and there was more affection and more contact than a mere hug between us, more than once. So in that case, it would be double standard.
I've been racking my brain over this. I have a feeling if we get into this discussion, I will get upset even more so, get angry, no...pissed off and say something I will hate myself for later, something I will regret so much.
But in all honesties...if he can't get over this...where exactly did he think this relationship was going to go? This is how I am with my friends and I'm not about to stop being who I am for nobody, not even for the love of my life.
Anyone out there have a say in this, please say it. I get it that he comes from a different kind of culture, but this is how I am.

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Tuesday, April 24th 2007 @ 11:13 AM (532 days, 17h, 12min ago)